Along came Love!

I Love You...

For the first few months of any relationship back then was hard for me, I got bored very easy, which sounds harsh I know but until I turned 16 my dad was really strict on where I went and who I saw. I wasn't the easiest daughter do deal with I admit and I was also a daddies girl to boot, so until I went to college I was restricted, or at least I felt like I was. 

Being in college gave me confidence I never felt I had before, I was bullied at school, was never the popular kid and I was fine with that, But college was a whole different ball game for me! Suddenly I was someone everyone wanted to know and even though I have never been the girl who sleeps around I did have a few boyfriends, Not at the same time mind lol, I have never been and never will be "THAT" girl!

But after a month or 2, I was bored, I know now that It was because I hadn't yet met Matt but at the time I just couldn't be with the same person for longer than 2-3 months.

So when I did meet Matt we agreed we were only "seeing" each other ( not serious but not seeing other people). That all changed after 4 days though, he told me he didn't want to be with anyone else and I knew I felt the same, although it was still hard for me to show my feelings.

We couldn't of been more different in the beginning, Matt would hold my hand walking down the street and kiss me in public, this was foreign to me because I was never one to show affection, yet Matt liked to show how much he cared, he liked to show people that we were together and that I was his and he was mine. 💕

It took me a while to get used to it.

Naturally it was Matt who said "I love you" first, and me being my dysfunctional self at the time ruined the moment by telling him I didn't believe him, I know I was awful!, But in my defense I knew I loved him too I just didn't want to get hurt!

I did tell him I love him the next day. 

I remember we were in his flat and he was making me laugh ( I don't remember how) and I looked at him and I knew right there and then that he would make me feel this way forever and I just blurted it out... "I love you" lol, and he just laughed and said I know! 

Starting new...

After being together a few months Matt decided he wanted to move back home to his mom and dads, the YMCA wasn't really the best place to live permanently and thinking back to it now we were only 17, he wasn't  really old enough to be living alone and not yet wise enough to stand on his own 2 feet.

I decided it was time for him to meet my parents and he wanted me to meet his parents. 

 I was nervous about him meeting my dad because as I said before I'm a daddies girl so I didn't think for one second my dad would approve, but I needn't have worried because they both loved him and have done so ever since! My dad and Matt have become very close over the years and I love that!
Meeting Matts parents was just as nerve racking for me for a couple of reasons,
 1, I have never been good with meeting parents, in fact I had only done it once before. 
2, I had been very badly misinformed by 2 of Matts friends that his mom would hate me on site due to the fact that he is an only child and no one would ever be good enough and also because...well, at the time I was loud and didn't care and lets just say I played by my own rules, Of course I had nothing to worry about because his mom and dad were totally welcoming of me and lovely and I have a fantastic relationship with his mom and his dad was one of the most amazing men I ever had the privilege of knowing. 

So Matt decided to take advantage of me meeting his mom and dad and used that time to ask if he could move back home which of course they welcomed him home with open arms. 

Once he moved home he got himself a job and I got myself onto a different course at college for hairdressing and life sort of clicked into place. I was exactly where I knew I wanted to be and with the person I knew I was meant to be with!

The beginning...

"The One"

They say that you meet "The One" in the most unexpected ways and times, well i met Matt whilst on a 15 minute break from my college day and he was walking up the high street heading to meet friends. Id seen him walk past every other day for a few weeks and i would tell my friend every time i saw him how fit (good looking) he was. On this day i was sitting outside with another friend and unbeknownst to me my friend knew him and called him over, feeling brave i walked up to Matt and asked him what he was listening to on his portable Walkman cassette. He didn't speak and just handed me his earphones for me to to hear what he was listening to. I listened for a few seconds to "Ride wit me by nelly" and then just handed the headphones back, smiled and walked away. At that my friend told him i thought he was fit and Matt just said "bring her to my flat". We were 17 years old at the time and Matt lived in the YMCA so had his own place, which i thought was mega cool cuz, well c'mon, how many 17 year olds did you know who had their own place at 17? lol. 

So i went back to college and carried on with my day and didnt think much more of it. Later that day i went to visit a friend of mine who lived in the YMCA, as i pushed open her door, who should be sitting in her room but Matt. He was new to living there and was getting to know others who lived there. I didnt know what to do so just let the door close and went to walk away until my friend from earlier in the day came out and was telling me how Matt liked me too,Matt came out of the flat and asked if i wanted to go for a walk with him. So we went for a walk and just talked and laughed for a while and ended up back at his flat (no funny business lol), I was so nervous because i really liked him, to break the ice he started to draw symbols on my back with his finger lol, one of them was the infinity symbol which has since come to represent us perfectly. He told me how pretty i was and how beautiful my eyes were and we both laughed at how cheesy it sounded, after a while we kissed, and the rest as they say is history....