I Love You...
For the first few months of any relationship back then was hard for me, I got bored very easy, which sounds harsh I know but until I turned 16 my dad was really strict on where I went and who I saw. I wasn't the easiest daughter do deal with I admit and I was also a daddies girl to boot, so until I went to college I was restricted, or at least I felt like I was.
Being in college gave me confidence I never felt I had before, I was bullied at school, was never the popular kid and I was fine with that, But college was a whole different ball game for me! Suddenly I was someone everyone wanted to know and even though I have never been the girl who sleeps around I did have a few boyfriends, Not at the same time mind lol, I have never been and never will be "THAT" girl!
But after a month or 2, I was bored, I know now that It was because I hadn't yet met Matt but at the time I just couldn't be with the same person for longer than 2-3 months.
So when I did meet Matt we agreed we were only "seeing" each other ( not serious but not seeing other people). That all changed after 4 days though, he told me he didn't want to be with anyone else and I knew I felt the same, although it was still hard for me to show my feelings.
We couldn't of been more different in the beginning, Matt would hold my hand walking down the street and kiss me in public, this was foreign to me because I was never one to show affection, yet Matt liked to show how much he cared, he liked to show people that we were together and that I was his and he was mine. 💕
It took me a while to get used to it.
Naturally it was Matt who said "I love you" first, and me being my dysfunctional self at the time ruined the moment by telling him I didn't believe him, I know I was awful!, But in my defense I knew I loved him too I just didn't want to get hurt!
I did tell him I love him the next day.
I remember we were in his flat and he was making me laugh ( I don't remember how) and I looked at him and I knew right there and then that he would make me feel this way forever and I just blurted it out... "I love you" lol, and he just laughed and said I know!
Starting new...
After being together a few months Matt decided he wanted to move back home to his mom and dads, the YMCA wasn't really the best place to live permanently and thinking back to it now we were only 17, he wasn't really old enough to be living alone and not yet wise enough to stand on his own 2 feet.
I decided it was time for him to meet my parents and he wanted me to meet his parents.
I was nervous about him meeting my dad because as I said before I'm a daddies girl so I didn't think for one second my dad would approve, but I needn't have worried because they both loved him and have done so ever since! My dad and Matt have become very close over the years and I love that!
Meeting Matts parents was just as nerve racking for me for a couple of reasons,
1, I have never been good with meeting parents, in fact I had only done it once before.
2, I had been very badly misinformed by 2 of Matts friends that his mom would hate me on site due to the fact that he is an only child and no one would ever be good enough and also because...well, at the time I was loud and didn't care and lets just say I played by my own rules, Of course I had nothing to worry about because his mom and dad were totally welcoming of me and lovely and I have a fantastic relationship with his mom and his dad was one of the most amazing men I ever had the privilege of knowing.
So Matt decided to take advantage of me meeting his mom and dad and used that time to ask if he could move back home which of course they welcomed him home with open arms.
Once he moved home he got himself a job and I got myself onto a different course at college for hairdressing and life sort of clicked into place. I was exactly where I knew I wanted to be and with the person I knew I was meant to be with!
